Insignificance

sooo....first i'm just gonna say that i'm disregarding proper grammar for the most part right now...cuz...i'm just too lazy to make my i's capital and to write out idk...or to make full sentences....that's why i almost always make ellipses (or however you spell it) instead. this is my full thought process in action...and i do not need grammar blocking the floow of my words.

ok...sooooo,
i have an account on youtube mainly since i like to leave comments if i have any on the videos that i watch. anyways, so i'm subscribed to a couple people and today when i went onto youtube one of my subscriptions had a new video...ewww....an icky bug just landed on my shoulder and i killed it :p ... ANNNYWAYS, so i watched the video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVVvic8okho

and its like....FINALLY....somebody else gets it, you know?
we, as human beings, think so much of ourselves and so highly of ourselves but the thing is that if you look at yourself in terms of the universe or even our planet/solar system, you realize that in comparison to that...we are soo insignificant. i've been trying to explain this to people but nobody believes me. that's how i think in terms of global warming or global climate change or w/e you wanna call it. how can we, as these tiny fleshy beings put on this planet for whatever reason i'm not even sure of, be the cause of something that is so big...so....global? I'm not exactly what you would call a believer in this whole global climate change conspiracy which as i see it is a scam and just a way that al gore tries to make us think that our planet is doomed so we give him our money so he can use his trusty scientists to help and 'reverse' it. and so the trendy concept of 'going green' is now so popular when i've been doing that 'green' stuff my entire life just because....well...cause it's the right thing to do. either way, its not so much that people believe in global climate change that bothers me, rather than the fact that they believe it is manmade. we, as earthlings, are just too insignificant to cause something so big. perhaps we contribute to it but really not that much that it would make such a difference. maybe you think i'm wrong but that's how i see it. anyways, i just thought of that because of our dinner conversation at the table this evening.

so my sister came home from college, and ever since she's started to live in a dorm she's kinda gone all...hippy-ish. or maybe she's always been that way and i just never really noticed. i choose to believe the first one. anyways, so at the dinner table she brings up how she just learned what the big bang theory was and when she thought about it, she got this 'epiphany', as she called it, that really...in this world...we are all one. i quote..."we are one with the stars, one with the ocean, one with everyone else" yea...i sorta thought she was crazy at first but then i started to think that maybe she did have a good point. and then it evolved into this conversation about how these things that we call 'scandals' or 'drama' that are in our lives, are only in our lives and causing us grief because we allow them to. we give them the power to have that effect over our lives.

in our lives, there will always be those people who behave rudely towards us or do mean things to us and we despise the fact that we've ever come within speaking distance of them, but once you think about it...maybe that person is there for a reason. theyre there to teach you a lesson. and maybe that's why we lose some people in our lives.even though theyre not here anymore....theyre still teaching us something.... things always happen for a reason, i've decided. ah...i should stop myself rite now...cuz i now i could go on but then i'd feel ridiculous cuz it's kind of like i'm not sure if anyone else thinks about this crap like i do, so if they read they'll be like...o yea margaret? yea the weird one who talks to herself on her blog that tries to convince me that the people i hate are in my life for a reason even though she's just kind of talking to herself? yea....she's kinda awkward

which ill admit... i kind of am.

either ways, after a while...i dont see the point in this cuz it just twists my mind and i begin convincing myself that i'm crazy for discussing these things with myself as i write this blog.
o my gosh... this isn't healthy. and i blame the unprofessional non-suit wearing mr. grdinic. yes, i told him i would write about his unprofessional attire in my blog. ahhh...its really bothering me that i'm not sure whether i spelled proffessional correctly or not.

ok i'm just gonna stop right here
alright...i'm out.

and omgosh! i definetely watched the double slit experiment for the first time today and it's soo freaking cool and i can't wait to learn more about it. i'm not sure that i'm as frustrated as i should be with this whole quantum crap but it makes sense to me and i love it.
okay really tho now.
im out.
if you read that, i hope you enjoyed my loserishness in writing form
as for now i'm margaret...and i'm not as cool as you...

peace!